I Can’t Eat This Ache

I Can’t Eat This Ache lyrics

Intro

One more bowl in the sink
One more light in the hall

Verse 1

I crack an egg with one hand
like I’m trying not to shake
The pan waits on the stove
cold circle, blackened edge
I stand in my own T-shirt
too big in the shoulders
and the spoon on the counter
looks like it knows my name

Pre-Chorus

I’m not hungry
I’m just here
for something warm
to hold me
The water climbs
then slips away
and I do too
I do too

Chorus

I can’t eat this ache
I can’t eat this ache
(ache, ache)
I can’t keep it here
in my ribs, in my face
I can’t eat this ache
I can’t eat this ache
(ache, ache)
But I still stir the pan
like you might come back today

Verse 2

There’s a cracked mug by the kettle
with a hairline through the side
My reflection in the window
keeps its distance from my eyes
I salt the potatoes too much
then laugh at the bitter taste
Like if I fill this room enough
I won’t fit inside the weight

Pre-Chorus

I’m not hungry
I’m just here
for a pulse
or a reason
The steam hits hard
then disappears
and I do too
I do too

Chorus

I can’t eat this ache
I can’t eat this ache
(ache, ache)
I can’t keep it here
in my ribs, in my face
I can’t eat this ache
I can’t eat this ache
(ache, ache)
But I still stir the pan
like you might come back today

Bridge

Say my name
over the sink
over the knife
over the steam
My hands are loud
my heart is small
I’ve been standing
in this spill
for too long
for too long

I can’t eat this ache
I can’t eat this ache
(ache, ache)
I can’t keep it here
in my ribs, in my face
I can’t eat this ache
I can’t eat this ache
(ache, ache)
So I leave the spoon in the pan
and let the room go still

Lyrics © Boulevard. Written for Desert Noir, an AI artist.