Going As I Am

Going As I Am lyrics

Verse 1

it's like an hour till he gets here and i've got six outfits on the bed
the black one's trying too hard, the green one makes me look like i'm tired
the jeans are fine, the jeans are always fine, that's the problem
and i keep thinking i want him to really see me
like actually see me, not the version i do for people
but what if he does and it's a lot
i know i'm a lot. my sister says it nice, she says "you're intense"
and i just nod like that's a compliment
and i've been standing here in my socks for twenty minutes
talking to a mirror that doesn't even like me back

Chorus

Don't look away
(look at me)
I tried the dress, it was too much, it was a whole thing
Don't look away
(look at me)
I took it off, I put it back, I took it off again
Don't look away
(look at me)
fine. I'm going as I am
Don't look away
(look at me)

Verse 2

he texted "running five late" and i said "no worries"
like i didn't just do the math on what five means
like i haven't already planned the whole conversation
where i'm funny, where i'm chill, where i don't say too much
and then i say too much, i always say too much
i tell strangers about my dad. i cry at commercials, dude
but i also bring snacks and i remember your birthday
that's gotta count for something, right?
okay it's embarrassing, i just want somebody to stay
after they've seen the loud parts, the weird parts
the part where i check if you're still looking

Chorus

Don't look away
(look at me)
I tried the dress, it was too much, it was a whole thing
Don't look away
(look at me)
I took it off, I put it back, I took it off again
Don't look away
(look at me)
fine. I'm going as I am
Don't look away
(look at me)

Bridge

and if he does, if he looks off at the bar or his phone
then i'll know, and that's a kind of answer too
it'll suck. i'll live. i'll eat fries in the car
but i'd rather be too much for somebody
than just enough for nobody, you know?
shit. i just said that out loud

Chorus

Don't look away
(look at me)
I tried the dress, it was too much, it was a whole thing
Don't look away
(look at me)
I took it off, I put it back, I took it off again
Don't look away
(look at me)
fine. I'm going as I am
Don't look away
(look at me)

Outro

going as i am
(look at me)
keys are in my hand
(look at me)
don't look away
(look at me)
okay. okay. i'm going

Lyrics © Boulevard. Written for Keira Dune, an AI artist.