Picked First

Picked First lyrics

Verse 1

(breath)
it's 1am and I'm zooming in on your pictures
and I'm comparing my body to yours and I hate that I'm doing it
your arm in that one, just resting on his shoulder like it's furniture
like it's always been there, like it didn't take the place of mine
and I know your name, I know your dog's name
I know you go to the farmers market, which, congratulations
I zoomed in on your hands to see if you bite your nails
you don't. of course you don't
and I'm sitting here with a bag of pretzels I'm not even hungry for
saying it's fine, it's fine, it's a free country
it's just that I'm not a free country, I'm a little bit of a mess

Chorus

I just wanted to be picked first
I just wanted to be picked first
not the best, not the prettiest, I know
I just wanted to be picked first

Verse 2

and I'm not mad at you, that's the annoying part
you were probably nice to him on a Tuesday
you probably laughed at the thing he says with the voice
I did that for three years, I did the laugh and the voice
I'd say you can have him but he's not mine to give
and he never was, maybe, that's the thing I don't say out loud
I'm doing okay, I go to the gym, I drink the water
I told my sister I'm over it and she said okay in that way
and I wanted to say, no, listen, it's not even him
it's being nine years old at the edge of the field
with my shoes tied tight, standing there, hoping

Chorus

I just wanted to be picked first
I just wanted to be picked first
and I know you didn't do it, I know it's not on you
I just wanted to be picked first

Bridge

so here's me closing the app
here's me not closing the app
okay. now I'm closing it
you look happy. I hope that's true
I hate that I hope that's true

Chorus

I just wanted to be picked first
I just wanted to be picked first
maybe I'll pick me, I'm working on it, it's slow
I just wanted to be picked first

Outro

ooh, ooh
(it's late)
ooh, ooh
(go to sleep)
mm, mm, mm

Lyrics © Boulevard. Written for Keira Dune, an AI artist.